Monday, April 27, 2009

Week 1 is gone!

Well week one of the 42 day challenge is gone and I was upset at first because on Saturday I only lost 1 pound. Yes....1 pound. But after reading Tanna's blog I felt much better because I did see a difference in how some of my pants buttoned up. Yes I could stand up and zip them up and not have to lay down and zip them up. That was nice!!!! So here is to week 2 of starting a new way of living and eating. The exercising is getting easier to do and the no sweets well that doesn't bother me as much. Fried foods don't sound good either. Way to go beauties on losing 97 lbs. This team is made up of an amazing group of girls that are dedicated. Until then....

Friday, April 24, 2009

42 day challenge update and Depression....

When I started taking chemo there was a chance it would cause depression. I have talked to my doctor about small bouts of depression and he said he wanted to start me on AntiDepressants. Well I insisted if it ever got bad enough I would call him back because I don't want another medicine. Well when has depression gone far enough you need the antidepressants? I don't think about suicide or any of that but my lord I have certain days my moods are crazy. I go from constanstly staying on my husband's back( he can't seem to do anything right even breathe- poor fellow) to crying and feeling so alone to feeling like my old self. I have NEVER experienced anything like this. But here is the thing- it only last for a day or so. I am hoping that this 42 day challenge will help these mood swings I am having because I seem to be excercising more which means I am to tired to Bit** as my husband says. And it only seems to happen on Fridays(the day I give myself the shot). Sometimes on Monday also but I think its because I am coming off the side effects of the chemo which makes me feel like I have the flu. I also have to confess I cheated today. I was working and my boss has always talked about spudnuts being the best donuts ever. Well I have never tried them and she went to ElDorado this morning and brought a dozen of spudnuts. I had to try one. When I say I had to try one I walked past the box like 10 times chewing the gum and carrying my water bottle....mouth watering just smelling them. Well I broke down and tried one and oh oh oh my......well worth the cheat. Now tonight I will think about that wonderful moist spudnut and work my tail off on the elliptical for at least 20 mins longer. OH i am sure that stupid spudnut won't be worth it after tonight. But it seemed like heaven for about all of one minute. Now if I can keep the rest of my cheats for next week all in the jar....until then......

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Day 2

I am struggling with Day 2. I am chewing the gum, drinking the water and all I can think of is any kind of chocolate. I am craving it beyond belief. I think it is a mental "war" in my head. Eat the chocolate and use a cheat eat-are you crazy why would you use one now. This is my thoughts back and forth. Ha! I am going to take a small break and walk for about 15 minutes. I think this will help and it is a gorgeous day out. Once I take this walk that will make me forget all about chocolate. Until then.....

Monday, April 20, 2009

day one

Today was day one of the 42 day challenge. I started out by working out for only 20 minutes on the ellipitical. I wanted to do 30 but woke up kinda late. I did good today eating. I did eat at Olive Garden but I only ate salad and soup. I drank 4 glasses of water there. I also had more water when I got home. I did eat a smaller amount of food than I normally would but I think it was because my breakfast was spent in the hospital with a friend who couldn't eat or drink anything until some tests were ran. She didn't get out of the hospital until 1:00 pm and then it was my turn to go to the doctor for a checkup, so I got to starve some more until about 2 pm. Then we ate so late that I didn't eat dinner. So maybe tomorrow will be a better day on eating more balanced meals instead of one big meal. I hope everyone else doing the challenge is doing well. Good Luck.. until then....

Sunday, April 19, 2009

42 day challenge

Tomorrow I will start the 42 day challenge. I am so glad that I found it and maybe this is what I needed all along to kick start my weight loss. I have been really struggling with all of this weight since I got off steriods. But now I will hopefully feel much better. I think it is so ironic that I crave Sonic all the time. Such an addiction to get Large or even Rt 44 drinks... yeah I said it Rt 44 you know you do too at Happy Hour :) Well knowing all weekend I was going to start the challenge and I didn't even get a drink yesterday or today. WoW!!! I am excited yet nervous. What if I am the only one who doesn't lose any weight? Then what! Well I am confident that I will lose at least 5 or 10 pounds. Does anyone have any suggestions? Wish me luck...until then..