Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Drake

Dear Drake,

You are an amazing son.  You seem to come up with something new everyday to entertain everyone.  You know how to keep everyone's attention.  You did karoke at Magic Screams this year.  I was very shocked.  You don't normally "perform" for people you don't know.  You sang three songs and on the last song..Slow Ride you had people stopping to watch you!!!  Everyone was cheering for you at the end...You was really getting into the song.   You can talk to any adult and have them laughing at you.  You played soccer this year and you were great at that.  You played goalie the first game and I didn't think you could dive and get right back up the way you did.  AWESOME!!!  You were very very good at goalie.  I was a VERY proud parent.  I am also proud of your grades.  You have made all A's so far.  Now you are starting a traveling basketball team and I know you will impress me with that.  You also spoke at a birthday party for your "muh"  Ms. Salley.  You did very well.  I was scared for you because I didn't know if you would speak in front of 100 + people, but you did.  After it was over and everyone was standing and clapping for you, all I could do was cry.  Tears of joy for my son..I love to read your books you write.  They are so funny. You never fail to impress me....


I am so proud to be your mom! 



wow!

Has it really been since July since I posted..

This has been on my mind for a while..
Addictions... I don't understand 'em...
Why do people do drugs and watch as their kids suffer...
Why are they so selfish as to put their kids last...
How can they say they love you but continue do do drugs...
How can they deny help when offered to them....

Just a few thoughts...
 Until next time...

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Moment of Silence for Cohen



Friday, June 4, 2010

random thoughts

Random thoughts of what I want in a relationship and out of life...


I am Lori.  I don't like games, I don't like fake people. I don't hate anyone except child abusers and child molesters.   I have crohn's disease. I never complain with it because there are people worse off then me and I don't want sympathy for something I can't change.  You only have one life so make the most of it.  Be kind to people you never know what they are going thru.
I've been thru more things in my life at 31 than most people have in their lifetime; but not complaining about them I just look at it as more experiences to learn from and do things better.  Along the way I realized there are somethings that I want.  Not material things.  Here is some off my list:  (most of it is related to relationships.)
 
I want someone who will love me unconditionally, be faithful to me; when trust is gone, it can take a lifetime to get it back if ever;  must work not just every once in a while, good with kids, compromise on household chores, loves God, likes to spend time with his partner as well as likes his time alone or with friends (meaning I don't want someone stuck up my butt 24/7 but I don't want someone who stays gone all the time too.  I want to be financially independent.  I want my child to be happy and know he is loved.  I want to finish my bachelor's degree.  I want to go on a mission trip to open my eyes to the world.  I would love to foster children at some point to give them love that they may have never received.  I would love to help the homeless with meals etc.. I want to wake up and smile bc of who I wake up to.  I want to go to bed at night happy.  I know that all relationships have arguments but I don't want the arguing and fighting all the time.  I want someone to appreciate all that I do.  I want someone to not be addicted to porn.  I want someone that doesn't get depressed and turn to drugs or gambling.  I want someone that will tell me exactly how they feel and not hold their feelings in.  I want someone to be open and honest with me.  I need someone who can laugh and have fun.  I want someone who doesn't make fun of people with disabilites.  Need someone to understand chronic diseases.(Not neccesarily understand the disease but to know that sometimes a person can look fine and be very ill so you may have to take over and help them out a little.)  Every relationship has to be 50/50.  There are times that it may be 60/40, 70/30, etc.. thats cool too but it cant be 70/30 the whole time.  I only ask these things of someone that I am capable of doing myself.  No one is perfect...I get this...

Thursday, January 28, 2010

48 weeks have past!!!

ok back in feb of last year I started chemo treatments for Hep C that they think I contacted during surgery I had to remove some of my small intestines (from the crohn's), since I don't fall into any other categories to get it!!! Today I just professed my love to my gastro dr. I am completely done with my shots and pills. I started a shot every friday and I took 6 pills a day. For every weekend since I started I have felt like I had the worst case of the flu. My body hurt SSOOOO bad and I had no strength. I could hardly lift the tea pitcher. Come Tuesday or so I would begin to feel like my normal self and then on Friday I would start the process all over again. There are other side effects to the meds also. Joint pain, psorasis, hair loss, etc... My hands stay swollen most of the time and I did get psorasis (I think the dermatologist just thought I was plain looney. I went in there told him the treatments I was on and he gave me creams, lotions, etc to try to calm the psorasis. Well I never had it before and I was freaked out. It kept getting worse and when I went back I told him to TAKE CARE OF IT... He told me the meds make it worse so to go to the tanning bed, use the creams etc and come back when I was done with treatments bc nothing would help at the time. (Actually what he said was either take the chance of skin cancer and go to the tanning bed to try to control this or use the lotions and let it get worse until ur treatments are over and I took the chance of the tanning bed with the lotions) And my hair...I went from a thick ponytail to using a child's size ponytail holder. I have new hair growing now...it does stick straight up but who cares at least its growing back.. anyway after 5 wks of treatment it was worth it the Hep C was undetectable... So all of this is worth it in the end I guess bc I AM COMPLETELY DONE WITH TREATMENTS!!! IM D.O.N.E. YES!!!! So now I have about 6 months to a year(what Dr. says) to face side effects from the meds. but the way I looked at it.. I pushed thru the pain all the other times IT CANT GET ANY WORSE..... ok by for now...gotta go celebrate....