Friday, June 4, 2010

random thoughts

Random thoughts of what I want in a relationship and out of life...


I am Lori.  I don't like games, I don't like fake people. I don't hate anyone except child abusers and child molesters.   I have crohn's disease. I never complain with it because there are people worse off then me and I don't want sympathy for something I can't change.  You only have one life so make the most of it.  Be kind to people you never know what they are going thru.
I've been thru more things in my life at 31 than most people have in their lifetime; but not complaining about them I just look at it as more experiences to learn from and do things better.  Along the way I realized there are somethings that I want.  Not material things.  Here is some off my list:  (most of it is related to relationships.)
 
I want someone who will love me unconditionally, be faithful to me; when trust is gone, it can take a lifetime to get it back if ever;  must work not just every once in a while, good with kids, compromise on household chores, loves God, likes to spend time with his partner as well as likes his time alone or with friends (meaning I don't want someone stuck up my butt 24/7 but I don't want someone who stays gone all the time too.  I want to be financially independent.  I want my child to be happy and know he is loved.  I want to finish my bachelor's degree.  I want to go on a mission trip to open my eyes to the world.  I would love to foster children at some point to give them love that they may have never received.  I would love to help the homeless with meals etc.. I want to wake up and smile bc of who I wake up to.  I want to go to bed at night happy.  I know that all relationships have arguments but I don't want the arguing and fighting all the time.  I want someone to appreciate all that I do.  I want someone to not be addicted to porn.  I want someone that doesn't get depressed and turn to drugs or gambling.  I want someone that will tell me exactly how they feel and not hold their feelings in.  I want someone to be open and honest with me.  I need someone who can laugh and have fun.  I want someone who doesn't make fun of people with disabilites.  Need someone to understand chronic diseases.(Not neccesarily understand the disease but to know that sometimes a person can look fine and be very ill so you may have to take over and help them out a little.)  Every relationship has to be 50/50.  There are times that it may be 60/40, 70/30, etc.. thats cool too but it cant be 70/30 the whole time.  I only ask these things of someone that I am capable of doing myself.  No one is perfect...I get this...